my brain and my heart
are saying two
completly different things
my brain is saying to run
run away
never looking back
to let no one in
stay away from everyone
shut out the world
isolate myse…
i'm so used to being independent
yet
i hate being alone
i don't ask for help
and i need it
cause i can't do things
on my own
i hate askin for it
cause i feel like a burden
always dumping
my s…
i'm still here
i wait
for something to happen
i don't know why
but i'm here
waiting for you
i'll always be here
in the shadows
waiting for someone to call
but until then
i wait
and wait …
there's this boy
who is the sweetest person
i've ever met
he's been there through everything
he's my best friend
my ex
and i still love him
what do you do
when the one person you can turn to
…
i'm gonna hafta face him again
and with that
i hafta face everything i've been running from
the thing is
i don't know
what i'm running from anymore
i just go
and it's stupid
but i've forgotten …