you don't know
what goes on
in my mind
anymore
everything i think
all my emotions
you used to be
able to read them
knew them
before i did
but you no longer
know
i can't
figure out
…
gotta clear my mind
i don't know
what's going on
but i can't
concentrate
on anything
everything is spinning
the world is turning
and i'm lost
in the chaos
what's wrong?
i don't know
a…
this fight
it won't stop
always there
never ceasing
and i don't think
that it will
not until i finally
chose to listen
to either my heart
or my head
not both
like i am today
my head, m…
my brain and my heart
are saying two
completly different things
my brain is saying to run
run away
never looking back
to let no one in
stay away from everyone
shut out the world
isolate myse…
lookin back at what i said last night
...damn, i sound really depressed
when really i'm not
or at least i don't think so
i mean i don't cut or think about suicide
or anything like that
life just gets t…