i'm totally confused. about a boy, well man. anyway, yeah i know sad.
so this guy is an awesome friend that i've gotten to know the past 2 years, this year especially.
i'm not gonna lie, sometimes i feel like the totally gets me. yet we still don't really know each other. we can have a conversation about anything, but i don't feel the need to hang on his arm every time i see him....but i kinda want to? idk, it's weird
i knew him last year, but we never really talked much. this year my first memory of him was him being, well at least sounding, somewhat excited to see me during summer football practices. he was the first one on the team to use my name and proceed to ask me about my summer & what not. and it just built up over the year.
he sat beside me in all the classes we had together, so we would randomly talk. later on during the year we hung out at a friend's house and he drove my lazy self to my car. last friday at our senior dance he was the ONLY one to ask me to dance, ever. and next year we'll both be at the same college....so yeah.
this boy basically has the potential to become someone i could tell anything to cause one-i know he'd at least listen, 2-he wouldn't really judge me, and 3- for me he's easy to talk to. idk, i have some weird ability to be able to talk to people others wouldn't think of talking to. what can i say it's a gift. ;-] so if that does happen, he would be the first person i'd let in since my sorta-ish ex-boyfriend/best friend. and it honestly kinda scares me how open i can already be with him....when i don't really know him. i mean, i could tell him all about my screwed up past/internal struggles that no one else knows about.
uhm.....so i'm not quite sure how i feel about him. i guess that's the best way to put it. he's been an amazing friend and i hope to get to know him better. we'll see where it goes from there. so, uhm well this was my rant to attempt to clear my head before i go to sleep and it only seemed to make me even more confused
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